addicted

i don't think i can say i'm truly addicted. but it's making my life much more difficult as i live without it.

i've taken the dare of a friend to go without ice cream for an entire year. well, i never really made the commitment... but i think it could be kind of fun. and by fun, i mean torturous - but with the makings of a good story.

what else am i addicted to?

this brings back the memory of a week or so ago, when i was jumping up and down and whining in agony as my "best friend" ran away with my cell phone, took out the battery and hid it. it is a very rare thing when i take a shower without my cell phone on the sink counter... it might be important!! seriously... what if it's an emergency? or a famous person?? i wouldn't want to miss either of those. is that an addiction?

i wish i was cool enough to say i'm addicted to my camera, but i'm one of those lame photographers who is okay leaving the house without a lens except the contacts in my eyes. laaaaammmmeee.

popularity. the way i felt tonight, when few of my closer friends were with me at my church's college age ministry's service, and i had no one flocking around me or following me when we went to sit down... that feeling was no good at all! i love making people laugh, and feeing important enough for them to follow me around, miss me when i run off to say hello to some acquaintance... and laugh at me for being so distracted when i come back. i know i'm shallow... please still follow me around and laugh at me!!

also, being awake. it's almost 2:30 AM. i have lunch with my padre tomorrow, and i still can't persuade myself to go to sleep at a normal hour!! i'm so unhealthy. the time will also hopefully explain the poor flow of this first post. but i wanted to write down some thoughts. i'm sure no one will read this... there are way too many blogs out there for mine to be important at all (i don't mind!), but i'm such a poor journaler, especially since i left mine in the dorm room back at school. and i want to be able to remember myself in a few years... look back and laugh at how childish and naive i am now.

so we'll see how this goes. wish me luck and good grammar!

..sarah/rosie