night time

i was up late doing homework last night. i broke up the overwhelming amount of work with spontaneous photoshoots that featured... my room. 

mmmnighttimecolors.

shadows.

(:

principles project is due soon.

played with my polaroid.

am i a grandma for having candy in a dish?

she slept peacefully

room decor.

i just want to go home.

i don't like doing two negative posts in a row, but it's been a tough week.

and all i want to do is go home.

i've been super sensitive about everything concerning my family and louisville all week. i feel bad.

i have to do homework, but i would much rather curl up under my blanket and sleep. sleep would take me out of this for a while.

i think my dad was in my dream last night.

distracted

today is the first day in a week and a half that i didn't feel incredibly sick with a cold.

i still went to my classes. (proud of me?)

today was the first day in about a week that it wasn't overcast and cold outside.

today felt like springtime, and i can't get anything done!

i have a huge test for mark moore tomorrow, and i can't seem to study for it worth anything. which is not conducive to getting good grades.

tomorrow is the last day of classes for like 

TEN WHOLE DAYS

and i'm so excited to be touring with the band in illinois next week. we're playing in chicago!

i was trying so hard to study, but i didn't know what to do with myself! sam and maggie came the room, and the sun was streaming in, and i got some awesome pictures of sam's beautiful eyes. then i couldn't sit still and study after that! so i decided to finally go get some springtime looking pictures of the grass outside the dorm. 

i'm all muddy... but it was worth it. totes ma goats. 

i'm going to study now. wish me luck.

God, Gideon, and my father

so i had a project due for my Old Testament class called a "Lesson Plan"... 3-4 pages of a teaching outline or something similar about part of the OT we had studies previously in class.

so i figured i would do a lesson for junior high or highschool aged kids about gideon and how he needed to trust God more or something like that. but as i did my research and read about it and studied the scripture itself, i found gideon to be completely underrated by most of us.

he only asked for verification three times for the biggest action of his lifetime for his entire nation. he asked that the Angel of the Lord stay and wait for his offering, and that the Lord would give him two different signs from a fleece left in dewy grass. but check this out -- while God pared down his forces from some thousands of men to only 300 to defeat the huge army of the midianites and amelakites, gideon didn't complain or question God once. not once.

the people recognized gideon as a strong leader; a general worthy of their respect and their trust. when he blew the trumpet and called Israel to arms against the impending enemy attack, they came. and after the battle, gid went after the enemy with fierceness and decisiveness that behooved a general of the Almighty.

he went from a young man scared of his own family's reactions to anything he might do, to a general that fiercely fights battles for the Lord.

and what caught me the most about this story, was the very beginning. in the very beginning of the story, God goes to gideon to talk to him about what he is supposed to do, and he calls this kid a mighty warrior. gideon's like, "say what?!"the Lord called it like he saw it... he knew gideon would become a mighty warrior for His Glory, and told him so.

God sees our potential, too... and he calls us by His name to live for His glory. i hope i can transform the way gideon did... and do awesome stuff for His kingdom the way gideon did.

also, i got an email from my dad today, and i would just like to brag about him. he's the most humble, smart, wise, loving, compassionate, just, generous christian man i've ever seen. he's the best husband and best father i've ever even heard of. i am so, so proud to be called his daughter, and have the same last name as him. i get to talk to him  all the time!!! be jealous of me! haha..

also, i love triscuits

mail call!

got a huge package in the mail this week!

it held:
big red (the soda!)
Ale 8 1 (also a soda!)
goldfish crackers
twizzlers
pringles
and valentines boxes of chocolates!!!

i love my family.

also, i have a ton of homework tonight.

a harmony of three gospels (only a section a few verses long in each)
a 1-2 page narrative paper rough draft
20 verses to memorize
reading for a seminar

all these things are due tomorrow/friday/saturday. stupid seminars messing up my weekend.